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Green To Brown - De File
Does Collecting Make You Feel Dirty?
cbertsch
cbertsch
Green To Brown
I'm back in Arizona, after nearly a week in Idaho. I can't say I was happy to see the swimming pool-studded expanse of the Phoenix metropolitan area from the plane, but I felt better about my return once I passed the Tangerine off-ramp on I-10. It's strange to be back, though. I feel like I've made some important discoveries over the summer, which were amply reinforced by my time away. Unfortunately, they aren't discoveries that I can turn into productive action anytime soon. I'd use an aquatic metaphor, describing myself as being caught in a rip current, except that my need to see the ocean is too strong to indulge such a trope. Suffice to say that I not only feel displaced, but in a way that accentuates my inability to make forward progress towards any place I wish to be. Sometimes, when I'm away on a trip, I am able to trick myself into thinking that the reality I've been living is one that I will wake up from upon my return home. Invariably, though, the riot of green I see in these fantasies turns out to be the same desiccated landscape from which I long to be liberated. Bleach the color out of things and you're left, not with white, but an abundance of brown.

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Current Location: 85704
Muse: I Will Haunt You - Oneida - Rated O

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violetselkie From: violetselkie Date: August 5th, 2009 11:22 pm (UTC) (LINK TO SPECIFIC ENTRY)
Have nothing clever to say, but really enjoyed this one. Very synesthetic.
cbertsch From: cbertsch Date: August 6th, 2009 12:39 am (UTC) (LINK TO SPECIFIC ENTRY)
Thanks! I'd feel better if the damned Monsoon would come back. It seems to be on the verge today, but I've had that sense before only to have my hopes cruelly dashed.
violetselkie From: violetselkie Date: August 6th, 2009 07:21 pm (UTC) (LINK TO SPECIFIC ENTRY)
This comment turned out to be a reverse jinx! Thanks! :)
cbertsch From: cbertsch Date: August 8th, 2009 10:35 pm (UTC) (LINK TO SPECIFIC ENTRY)
And then a reverse reverse jinx, apparently, to my further chagrin. This Monsoon has been a real letdown so far. Ahem.
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