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Not So Terrible - De File
Does Collecting Make You Feel Dirty?
cbertsch
cbertsch
Not So Terrible
I suppose it's to be expected that I'm feeling strange of late, given all that has transpired. The surprise for me is that this "strange" is not a euphemism for "bad." I do have moments of sadness and worry, of course. But I also find myself periodically flooded with a sense of well-being, as if I were finally beginning to make my descent after a long, hard climb. I mean, I know I'm still climbing and will be for some time. Yet the sensation of having already made it through the roughest part is providing needed sustenance and focus. It's almost like positive visualization, a coping strategy I have used far too rarely in my life. Anyway, this is not the kind of introspection I'm good at it and certainly not the sort I should share very often. So I will desist. Suffice it to say that I'm doing alright from a mental standpoint and only slightly worse from a physiological standpoint, somatizer that I am.

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e4q From: e4q Date: March 4th, 2010 08:27 am (UTC) (LINK TO SPECIFIC ENTRY)
cbertsch From: cbertsch Date: March 6th, 2010 04:19 pm (UTC) (LINK TO SPECIFIC ENTRY)
I like it. What's the floor made of? It's so shiny and dark.
e4q From: e4q Date: March 6th, 2010 04:41 pm (UTC) (LINK TO SPECIFIC ENTRY)
i didn't take this picture - it's just part of my tumblr repertoire. i do now own a camera though!!!!!!!
elizabeg From: elizabeg Date: March 5th, 2010 03:47 am (UTC) (LINK TO SPECIFIC ENTRY)
Ah, somatization, how I know and love and loathe thee...

But I am very glad strange is just strange for you now and not worse. I've been thinking of you and your parents. I've also been behind on correspondence since I left for and returned from AZ--but I got your message and will write you soon!
cbertsch From: cbertsch Date: March 6th, 2010 04:19 pm (UTC) (LINK TO SPECIFIC ENTRY)
I am more behind than you are, so don't feel bad about being "behind." More soon. . .
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