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What About Young Annalee? - De File
Does Collecting Make You Feel Dirty?
cbertsch
cbertsch
What About Young Annalee?
In light of the rich and rewarding project that e_compass_rosa has started, I have been wondering how to articulate the weight that I carry around with me. The problem, to state it as plainly as I can, is that the weight I struggle with the most is a kind of weightlessness. To be sure, I have been carrying an awful lot in recent years. But what undoes me, time and time again, is the feeling that I have been removed from my own life like the fat that shoots up the tube during liposuction. Even the weight that I impose on others is cut out of the picture. Although I know the ostensible reasons for being "disappeared" in this manner, I still find myself being persuaded that I'm not really here. That shiver I used to get looking through photo albums in which I rarely appear, because I was taking the picture, has now become my primary response to the world.

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e4q From: e4q Date: May 1st, 2010 08:18 am (UTC) (LINK TO SPECIFIC ENTRY)
that's really interesting. have you thought how you could represent it? might be worth looking at some of the pictures you have posted here already. what about the one of your bookshelves?
cbertsch From: cbertsch Date: May 1st, 2010 04:38 pm (UTC) (LINK TO SPECIFIC ENTRY)
That's a really good idea, actually. I sure have plenty of photos in which I am present as absence!
e4q From: e4q Date: May 1st, 2010 04:50 pm (UTC) (LINK TO SPECIFIC ENTRY)
rock on!
cbertsch From: cbertsch Date: May 1st, 2010 05:09 pm (UTC) (LINK TO SPECIFIC ENTRY)
Thanks for that. Accentuating the positive in what at first seems a negative is something I need to do more of.
e4q From: e4q Date: May 1st, 2010 05:17 pm (UTC) (LINK TO SPECIFIC ENTRY)
well, it's a bit of a poisoned chalice of a theme. while we are at pains to work out how to live our lives, here is something asking us to reflect upon something almost inevitably negativistic. it is interesting to notice that not all the contributers have interpreted it that way, and also what it means to process something 'negative' creatively.
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