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So, I'm inching my way back towards maintaining a regular presence here again. And the way I mean to do it is by treating this space as the public diary that it really is rather than pretend that it's some grandiose project. The more I think about it, the more I'm starting to think that I just needed to break the connection with certain non-LJ folks who read me on a regular basis. The pressure of having to perform for them, on top of everything else going on in my life, was simply too much to cope with.

Some of those readers were longtime friends. Some were former colleagues. And some were people I've grown close to recently, with whom I therefore felt a special obligation to put my best foot forward. Now that they've surely drifted away -- who would keep checking a blog that has one entry in a month? -- I can scale back my ambitions and just say what's on my mind.

What's going on this week? Well, today was my father's eightieth birthday. Kim and Skylar joined me on Saturday at my parents' apartment to celebrate with him prior to the Belmont Stakes. Then they left for a mother-daughter trip to the same places in the San Diego area that the three of us had just visited the previous week.

They seem to be having a grand time there. I am more jealous of their fun than I normally would be, as I may explain in a later entry, but still relatively calm about the fact that I'm back in Tucson partaking of the area's famous "dry heat." Tonight was my father's real birthday, so I cooked my parents dinner, then watched the first part of an opera with him after I'd put my mother to bed. Together with having his granddaughter over to watch all three Triple Crown races, that was about as good a birthday present as I could have given him.

Now I'm sitting here rather agitated by the full moon, trying to get myself sleepy enough to enjoy the restful slumber I can enjoy only when I'm by myself. But I will finish off the coconut curry I made for dinner before that happens, then curl up with the two Japanese novels in translation that I'm rereading for an essay I plan to write: Kawabata Yasunari's Snow Country and Murakami Haruki's A Wild Sheep Chase. I like the idea of switching between them, both because they are so different in tone and because I read them the first time at very different junctures in my twenties.

Well, there you have it. I managed to write an actual entry that communicates something more than my tortured musings on why I haven't been able to write actual entries communicating something more than my tortured musings. That's progress, even if it doesn't quite qualify as a a full step forward.

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e4q From: e4q Date: June 14th, 2011 01:08 pm (UTC) (LINK TO SPECIFIC ENTRY)

yay!

welcome back!
cbertsch From: cbertsch Date: June 14th, 2011 07:12 pm (UTC) (LINK TO SPECIFIC ENTRY)

Re: yay!

:-)

I'm trying.
e4q From: e4q Date: June 14th, 2011 07:13 pm (UTC) (LINK TO SPECIFIC ENTRY)

Re: yay!

know anything about this lot? http://www.scribd.com/

i can't really work out how it works. might just be having a 'slow' day...
cbertsch From: cbertsch Date: June 14th, 2011 07:59 pm (UTC) (LINK TO SPECIFIC ENTRY)

Re: yay!

It seems like a really good idea, but I'm having trouble getting it to play nice with Facebook. I did create a password, though.
e4q From: e4q Date: June 15th, 2011 06:50 am (UTC) (LINK TO SPECIFIC ENTRY)

Re: yay!

i gave up looking at it after a while... i'm pretty convinced it's a good thing. just need understand what it is...
croneitude From: croneitude Date: June 14th, 2011 03:38 pm (UTC) (LINK TO SPECIFIC ENTRY)
:-)
cbertsch From: cbertsch Date: June 14th, 2011 07:12 pm (UTC) (LINK TO SPECIFIC ENTRY)
Nice to see your user name here as well.
croneitude From: croneitude Date: June 14th, 2011 07:21 pm (UTC) (LINK TO SPECIFIC ENTRY)
You are inspiring me to work my own way back to LJ. I miss it, and need the creative outlet.
cbertsch From: cbertsch Date: June 14th, 2011 08:00 pm (UTC) (LINK TO SPECIFIC ENTRY)
Maybe a break was in order for both of us.
la_sauvage From: la_sauvage Date: June 14th, 2011 03:46 pm (UTC) (LINK TO SPECIFIC ENTRY)
still reading.
cbertsch From: cbertsch Date: June 14th, 2011 07:11 pm (UTC) (LINK TO SPECIFIC ENTRY)
That's a comfort. Thank you!
elizabeg From: elizabeg Date: June 14th, 2011 05:43 pm (UTC) (LINK TO SPECIFIC ENTRY)
Good to see you here!
cbertsch From: cbertsch Date: June 14th, 2011 07:11 pm (UTC) (LINK TO SPECIFIC ENTRY)
Thanks.
chefxh From: chefxh Date: June 14th, 2011 06:43 pm (UTC) (LINK TO SPECIFIC ENTRY)
I managed to write an actual entry that communicates something more than my tortured musings on why I haven't been able to write actual entries communicating something more than my tortured musings.

I think all of us have suffered for splitting our time here and elsewhere. I try to go into more detail here, say things I won't say on FB, and select who can see them. With all the worrying all of us did about privacy here, it feels so much more private than that other network, and not just because of the relative populations.

For all the fact that livejournal is the shit in Russia, I feel like a diehard here sometimes.
cbertsch From: cbertsch Date: June 14th, 2011 07:11 pm (UTC) (LINK TO SPECIFIC ENTRY)
Yes, I think it is more private, both because of the friends-only option that doesn't get continually undercut in the way that Facebook privacy does and because the nature of the beast, at this point, is such that most people don't pay much attention. But it could be the case that the diehards find something worthwhile here that they were in danger of losing a few years back.
tommix From: tommix Date: June 14th, 2011 09:14 pm (UTC) (LINK TO SPECIFIC ENTRY)
I have you in my Google reader, so I keep up with your LJ postings that way.
cbertsch From: cbertsch Date: June 14th, 2011 09:24 pm (UTC) (LINK TO SPECIFIC ENTRY)
Assuming I make any, that is. . .

I'm trying.
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