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Realization - De File
Does Collecting Make You Feel Dirty?
cbertsch
cbertsch
Realization
It's always surprising how we -- or, to be more specific, I -- can see almost everything clearly except what's staring us right in the face. The sluggishness I've been feeling, that sense that I just don't have the energy to see projects through to completion, is almost certainly a direct result of the fact that I've been eating less healthily -- or at least at less healthy times -- and exercising in a more haphazard and sometimes half-assed manner.

I think one of my caffeine purges is in order. I haven't "detoxed" since before my mother's fall last February. And I need to start riding my bike every day and also jogging on a regular basis. My knee is as healed as it's ever going to be. All I need is the will to get out the door and get moving. Easier said than done, to be sure, but it does help to know that I've managed to shape up like that a few times in the past five years.

It's no surprise that how I feel physically bears on my ability to do intellectual work. Or that how I feel about my mental exertions conditions my relationship with my body. That's why I've resumed, after a long hiatus, writing by hand in my journal. And It's also why I'm making it a point to read theoretical texts for the first time in a long while. I still have what it takes to do good work with them. All I need is to get in a groove.

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chefxh From: chefxh Date: August 5th, 2011 05:19 pm (UTC) (LINK TO SPECIFIC ENTRY)
I sit on my increasingly fat ass, sipping French roast and thinking about the bicycle out in the shed. I said I would ride it every day of my month off. Haven't been on it yet.

I feel ya, brother.
cbertsch From: cbertsch Date: August 6th, 2011 08:28 am (UTC) (LINK TO SPECIFIC ENTRY)
The problem with getting so tired -- and I know you're even more tired than I am -- is that it's so frickin' hard to find the motivation to do the physical exertions that will lead to a gradual increase in stamina.
e4q From: e4q Date: August 6th, 2011 05:02 pm (UTC) (LINK TO SPECIFIC ENTRY)
i'm so sick and tired of being sick and tired. i'm about to ask my doc for this http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Modafinil which seems to be some sort of legal speed... only being used for narcolepsy here, so i don't know if he will go for an off label use, but it seems to be being used for a few things round your way.
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