De File - Music Malaise
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Music Malaise
I am becoming increasingly desperate to rediscover my desire to discover new music. I still listen, when I'm able, such as when I'm riding my bike, cleaning, or -- too infrequently -- at the gym. But I find myself falling into that long-dreaded rut in which I only want to hear what I already know.

Some of my malaise has to do with changes in the musix business. And a good deal of it can surely be attributed to my dearth of alone time in which reasonably awake. I worry, though, that these are excuses masking a hardening of my heart. I don't want to retreat into the comfort consumption of nostalgia just yet.

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masoo From: masoo Date: January 18th, 2014 08:00 am (UTC) (LINK TO SPECIFIC ENTRY)
Your relationship to new music can be a sign of all sorts of things. And indeed, those things might include a hardening of the heart, or a lapse into nostalgia. But those are not always or necessarily true. A combination of the presence of so much new music, and so little time to experience it, along with just simple things about how we change as we age ... all of those are equally convincing explanations, and they do not require a hard heart or a move towards comfort consumption. But I hear you. I can remember, during the height of my concert-going days (mid-70s to mid-80s) thinking I never wanted to reach the point where I didn't go to a gazillion shows. It was easy to think that back then ... concerts were among other things an escape from work, and I was young and thought nothing of sleeping overnight in line, or standing on a concrete floor for hours, or just banging violently against fellow moshers. The fact that I attend few concerts now, though, is less a case of my hardening heart, and more a case of my being 60 years old.
cbertsch From: cbertsch Date: January 20th, 2014 07:27 am (UTC) (LINK TO SPECIFIC ENTRY)
I was thinking of you when I wrote this. I keep wondering whether my "malaise" is more a function of age or the state of popular music today. Something that used to thrill me consistently seems to be in short supply, at best. Do they make Cialis for music appreciation?
bitterlawngnome From: bitterlawngnome Date: January 18th, 2014 05:51 pm (UTC) (LINK TO SPECIFIC ENTRY)
Perhaps you need to go further back instead of forward. There's 100+ years of recorded music available now.
cbertsch From: cbertsch Date: January 20th, 2014 07:29 am (UTC) (LINK TO SPECIFIC ENTRY)
That's good advice. And I do that, when I have the time to explore. But I find that knowing something is already out there and has been for a while makes it seem less pressing to listen to it now, which, when combined with my crazy schedule, means that I keep putting off that sort of discovery.
mallorys_camera From: mallorys_camera Date: January 21st, 2014 05:07 pm (UTC) (LINK TO SPECIFIC ENTRY)
Best way to find new music is to hunt down the names of tracks and artists that make the hairs on the back of your neck stand up when they're used as background music in TV or movies.
cbertsch From: cbertsch Date: January 22nd, 2014 06:14 pm (UTC) (LINK TO SPECIFIC ENTRY)
That's a really good idea. There have been a few recent commercials that have caught my ear. It's not like the days when Bob Seger was just about the only thing you'd hear aside from custom jingles. Have you discovered anything good that way lately?

Oh, and it's great to hear from you here. I'm trying to lure my LJ skills out of dormancy. I don't think there's a direct correlation to starting therapy, but I do feel a more pressing need now to communicate what I'm doing, however mundane.

Edited at 2014-01-22 06:17 pm (UTC)
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Charlie Bertsch
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Name: Charlie Bertsch
Back January 2015
You're looking at content from my Live Journal, which I have been keeping since 2003. I consider it a personal blog, though it lacks stream-of-consciousness revelations that typify that genre.

That said, if you manage to discern the confessional mode within entries that are superficially tight-lipped, I will reward you handsomely. Or at least pretend to do so.

In addition to reflections, however mediated, on my daily activities, De File features periodic excavations of material from my "files," a revelation sure to disturb anyone who has seen my garage. It's an experiment in integrating past and present, perhaps with a little redemption along the way.

Politics is always on my mind, but rarely explicit here. I’m working on a theory about what personal writing like this does to literary identification and why some people resist its pull so powerfully. But my goal is to make that theory dissolve in my practice, a density in liquid.

You'll note that I have links to blogs not on LiveJournal directly above, as well as assorted websites of note. The blogs I read regularly on LiveJournal itself fall under "FRIENDS" at the top, for those of you unfamiliar with LJ’s workings.

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