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Die Kreuzung
I find myself, once again, at the crossroads, warding off the hellhounds with a bracing dose of Herb:
The more the autonomous ego becomes superfluous, even retarding and disturbing in the functioning of the administered, technified world, the more does the development of the ego depend on its "power of negation," that is to say, on its ability to build and protect a personal, private realm with its own individual needs and faculties. Yet this ability is impaired on two grounds: the immediate, external socialization of the ego, and the control and management of free time -- the massification of privacy. Deprived of its power of negation, the ego, striving to "find identity" in the heteronomous world, either spends itself in the numerous emotional and mental diseases which come to psychological treatment, or the ego submits quickly to the required modes of thought and behavior, assimilating its self to the others. But the others, in the role of competitors or superiors, evoke instinctual hostility: identification with their ego ideal activates aggressive energy. The externalized ego ideal guides the spending of this energy: it does not drive the conscience as the moral judge of the ego, but rather directs aggression towards the external enemies of the ego ideal. The individuals are thus mentally and instinctually predisposed to accept and to make their own the political and social necessities which demand the permanent mobilization with and against atomic destruction, the organized familiarity with man-made death and disfiguration.
Now all I need is a J.G. Ballard chaser!

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bitterlawngnome From: bitterlawngnome Date: May 6th, 2014 06:02 pm (UTC) (LINK TO SPECIFIC ENTRY)
And it's your birthday, neh? Hope it's a good one!
cbertsch From: cbertsch Date: June 4th, 2014 09:43 pm (UTC) (LINK TO SPECIFIC ENTRY)
Thanks for the kind wishes. Things actually went very seriously awry. Or, to be more precise, they had already gone awry and refused to right themselves. But it seems like a little more stability is coming into my life now. It's nice to know you are out there, even if I have been so invisible of late.
johnny9fingers From: johnny9fingers Date: May 6th, 2014 07:25 pm (UTC) (LINK TO SPECIFIC ENTRY)
^ Jackie Kennedy, your eyelids deflagrate. The serene face of the President’s widow, painted on clapboard four hundred feet high, moves across the rooftops, disappearing into the haze on the outskirts of the city. There are hundreds of the signs, revealing Jackie in countless familiar postures. Next week there may be an SS officer, Beethoven, Christopher Columbus or Fidel Castro. The fragments of these signs litter the suburban streets for weeks afterwards. Bonfires of Jackie’s face burn among the reservoirs of Staines and Shepperton. With luck he finds a job on one of the municipal disposa teams, warms his hands at a brazier of eyes. At night he sleeps beneath an unlit bonfire of breasts....
cbertsch From: cbertsch Date: June 4th, 2014 09:44 pm (UTC) (LINK TO SPECIFIC ENTRY)
So good!
croneitude From: croneitude Date: May 6th, 2014 09:33 pm (UTC) (LINK TO SPECIFIC ENTRY)
As you know, I'm all about tearing down my egoic structures... though I've yet to succeed it would seem. :-)
cbertsch From: cbertsch Date: June 4th, 2014 09:45 pm (UTC) (LINK TO SPECIFIC ENTRY)
I think the mere trying counts for a lot. So long as our sense of self is not too centered and self-confident, we are far less likely to be destructively blinded by its illusions.
celebrian_3 From: celebrian_3 Date: May 9th, 2014 05:23 pm (UTC) (LINK TO SPECIFIC ENTRY)
Thoughts like these follow me most of the day, though they are expressed much less adequately and eloquently :).

Like E commented, I'm trying to subjugate ego, but this is a task for several lifetimes, I think.
cbertsch From: cbertsch Date: June 4th, 2014 09:51 pm (UTC) (LINK TO SPECIFIC ENTRY)
My apologies for the belated reply. Life has been very stressful of late in our household. I am hopeful that it will become less so in the near future, but my optimism has been dashed before.

Here's hoping that things are going just a little bit better for you. I would love to see you sometime, if possible. Not that I'm no longer caring for my mother 50+ hours per week, my schedule is a little bit more flexible.
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You're looking at content from my Live Journal, which I have been keeping since 2003. I consider it a personal blog, though it lacks stream-of-consciousness revelations that typify that genre.

That said, if you manage to discern the confessional mode within entries that are superficially tight-lipped, I will reward you handsomely. Or at least pretend to do so.

In addition to reflections, however mediated, on my daily activities, De File features periodic excavations of material from my "files," a revelation sure to disturb anyone who has seen my garage. It's an experiment in integrating past and present, perhaps with a little redemption along the way.

Politics is always on my mind, but rarely explicit here. I’m working on a theory about what personal writing like this does to literary identification and why some people resist its pull so powerfully. But my goal is to make that theory dissolve in my practice, a density in liquid.

You'll note that I have links to blogs not on LiveJournal directly above, as well as assorted websites of note. The blogs I read regularly on LiveJournal itself fall under "FRIENDS" at the top, for those of you unfamiliar with LJ’s workings.

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