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Gleichnis - De File
Does Collecting Make You Feel Dirty?
Is this what it was like in the Germany my grandparents left behind? The youth are so clean-scrubbed, behaving the way their elders desire, but still apart, together. One picks up a guitar, plays along to a sweet-sixteen blonde singing haphazardly about Jesus. Others mill about, the boys with their shirts off, wiry, tanless. They surf. They play catch with a football. They flirt. But it's all good because it's all godly. I count the fish on the Ford Explorers and their imported look-alikes. The vans are white, the cars and trucks silver. I keep thinking of that moment in Cabaret when everyone in the outdoor beer garden rises in song, praising the stag in the forest. "Bambi is a proto-fascist allegory," I say to you, to anyone who will listen. It makes people laugh. It makes me smile. But that doesn't mean it's not true. Surely these campers approve of the newly restored version of the Disney classic, "available for the first time on DVD!" Each campsite is overflowing with teenage goodness, the over-lean bodies circling the fire pits. It's all good and it gives me the willies. Something is brewing in the Feuerzwangbowle. And they don't even need uniforms to drink it because their lives have the same common denominator already. The mall. The brand names. The slogans. The empty circle at the center where the flames surge toward the sky, feeding off the air of willful ignorance.

Mode: overhyped
Muse: surf-twang something-or-other

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From: jodi3425 Date: March 29th, 2005 11:07 pm (UTC) (LINK TO SPECIFIC ENTRY)


I think alot about Cabaret--there was a staging while I was in college that perfectly captured the horror that was one and the same as the pure, sweetness, unity, even joy. It's kind of awful reading your post and seeing the wonderful vacation photos--for the exact same reasons as Cabaret. Also, what you say about uniforms/brand names is so completely perfect--I really with I had thought of that!
From: cedward Date: March 30th, 2005 03:32 pm (UTC) (LINK TO SPECIFIC ENTRY)
It is worse when you are in the bubble they abide in and decline the social strata of their existence . . . trust me . . . I went to Bible College and work at a "Christian" university. Comfort ye, though . . . a lot of that is fake. The students at the academy (read: Christian Day School) call it the veneer in the 80's we called it the masks. It the pretense prescribed by the society. Still, it's a choice . . .
cbertsch From: cbertsch Date: March 31st, 2005 02:17 am (UTC) (LINK TO SPECIFIC ENTRY)
Good point about the fakeness. Somehow, though, realizing it's largely fake doesn't comfort me much. Going through the motions is bad enough. I sympathize with your teaching situation!
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