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Delta Force - De File
Does Collecting Make You Feel Dirty?
cbertsch
cbertsch
Delta Force
I found this in one of my old notebooks. Although the entries do not have dates -- very uncharacteristic of me -- I know that it was written early in 1991:
If I speak to the you I know, I err, equating past and present. But if I acknowledge change, that you are not now who you were when I really knew you, I surrender all hope of privileged conversation: we become two people who have just met, pastless, pointlessly engaged in attempts at mutual understanding.
While I now regard the conclusion I reach in this fragment as unnecessarily bleak, the problem it confronts is one that is always in my mind at the moment. How can we be free of the past without falling into the bondage of a life without history?

Mode: better-slept
Muse: Twilight - Elliott Smith - From A Basement On The Hill

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elizabeg From: elizabeg Date: May 11th, 2005 03:04 pm (UTC) (LINK TO SPECIFIC ENTRY)
Ah, but "I"--it is a shifty shifter too. So does this make the matter of pointlessness, ungrounded positions, better or worse in terms of what must be surrendered? Too exhausted to tell (I am not better-slept, you see) but I do like that there is a "we" in that last line regardless--
cbertsch From: cbertsch Date: May 11th, 2005 03:56 pm (UTC) (LINK TO SPECIFIC ENTRY)
It's like your psychic or something. I wasn't writing about "points" here but had been doing just that in private correspondence. Yes, the "I" is also a shifty shifter. Benveniste and all that. I guess what I'm in the middle of figuring out is how to realize my long-deferred dream of a "we" that cannot be reduced to a duality. Triangles I can at least temporarily grasp, but even they are tricky. Beyond that, it's rough. I'm starting to grasp the extent to which, variously, Badiou, Deleuze and Guattari, and Hardt and Negri are all trying to provoke us to think multiply in an irreducible manner. What I'm saying is A) that I'm very happy to have received your missive; and B) that I need to recover the math I never learned adequately so that I can fully comprehend set theory.
elizabeg From: elizabeg Date: May 11th, 2005 08:39 pm (UTC) (LINK TO SPECIFIC ENTRY)
I'm glad to be a bit clairvoyant :)

Remind me to tell you at some point about the crazy wonder of days Badiou came to lecture here last year. Will be reading Deleuze this summer alongside Sterne. In many ways, I'm all about "the open," enjoy pretending I've retained my math, my father's legacy of algebra to me, etc.

More missives before long--
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