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Blast From the Past
Today I had an under-the-weather Bean in tow, reminding me of the days when I was doing that regularly. It's a shame she missed her class's splash party, but I'll admit to enjoying the opportunity to take good care of her, which included A) keeping the A/C in Old Red on full blast and pointed towards her car seat, even though I normally turn the fan off when stopped in traffic; B) letting her rifle through my desk drawer while attempting to talk to J about his prelims; C) chasing her down the hall in Modern Languages when she'd had enough with rules and restrictions; D) helping her to use the bathroom with dignity and then running her a baking soda bath; E) curling up on the sofa with her to watch Winnie the Pooh videos; F) bringing her lots of "homemade" Gatorade and saltines; G) encouraging her to bring "Eau Claire Pooh" out to the sofa to join us in our viewing festivities; H) rejoining her on the sofa this evening to watch three Little Bear videos, which always remind me of those dark times when she was perpetually unhappy and the world of Little Bear provided a refuge into which I could imagine us escaping; I) letting her sit on my head, punch me, kick me, roll on top of me, and otherwise abuse me as a way of letting off steam while I made a series of horrible sounds underneath her writhing form. I didn't get much done today, but I feel a lot more grounded than I have in weeks. Coupled with the pleasures of yesterday's lunch, dinner, and recital, the last 48 hours have done wonders for my psyche.
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From: zokah Date: May 19th, 2005 03:22 pm (UTC) (LINK TO SPECIFIC ENTRY)
there have been more than two dozen occasions when speaking w/you or kim or reading one or the both of you that i've been prompted to think the kid thing isn't such a bad thing at all. it's when i've been in sky's presence that i'm convinced of this. your relationship with her dispels the common notions of raising a child, and rather rephrases it to sharing life with another being. i thank you and kim for the perspective and enlightened glimpse into person-rearing.
cbertsch From: cbertsch Date: May 19th, 2005 06:10 pm (UTC) (LINK TO SPECIFIC ENTRY)
That's such a nice thing to say! I've never minded being around children. BTF/Center Stage helped too, especially those trips we made with kids from North Richmond. Still, being a parent is different than imagining being a parent. It's very hard on one's "adult" relationships, even while strengthening the important ones in another register. Much love you way --
From: zokah Date: May 19th, 2005 07:04 pm (UTC) (LINK TO SPECIFIC ENTRY)

tea parties for one

yes, so I've gathered from ALL the other people in my life who have children. I think the biggest adult relationship it would affect would be the one I have with me (by far my longest-running crush!). I am content playing the Auntie Jenn, ahem, Auntie Zoe role (the psychotic aunt) to all the little lambs. The Zoe thing has alot to do with that.

Can hardly wait to see you all!
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