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Does Collecting Make You Feel Dirty?
Thoughts Occasioned By An Imminent Trip To Costco
I suppose this is a variation on Pascal's much-quoted dictum that a person who goes through the motions of praying without believing will, if this ritual is repeated often enough, turn into a believer. We act out desire for others and end up incorporating it into our sense of what and why we are. Even if we start with no sense of what we want, we eventually learn to want precisely what our performance dictates we should want. In the process, we retroactively found an identity that works through the logic of infinite regress.

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Mode: weighted down by a box I'm no longer carrying
Muse: that song about Heffalumps and Woozles

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hollsterhambone From: hollsterhambone Date: June 26th, 2005 11:23 pm (UTC) (LINK TO SPECIFIC ENTRY)
This is a thought that scares me. I sometimes wonder--in dark moments--if I am telling myself what I want with such frequency and intensity that I become accustomed to believing what I'm telling myself is truth. Then I recover from my moment of self-sabotage and get with the program. It's a cycle (of mine): of skepticism, analysis, and recovery. But why must this cycle of self-discovery be fraught with hysteria? (The hysterical nature of the investigation coming from a paranoid relationship to a saying and meaning fissure or disconnect.)
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