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The Laws of Physics - De File
Does Collecting Make You Feel Dirty?
cbertsch
cbertsch
The Laws of Physics
This past week feels like the longest of my life, even though it contained the same number of seconds as all the rest. I was just sitting at the computer, not really doing anything in particular, and was suddenly overcome by everything that's happened to me in that time. None of it is clearly "bad" and much is definitely good. But that doesn't make me any less exhausted. I could use a few weeks where time passes more quickly to balance things out.

On the other hand, there's something to be said for seven days of sentimentality, in which a wide variety of songs make me teary and a Dogme film leaves me sobbing. When I was reading Goethe's Sorrows of Young Werther back in German 101, I was going through the ups-and-downs of undergraduate passion and identified strongly with the protagonist. Later on, I'd look back on that time in my life and think, "Damn, it was strange to feel so much directly." I suppose it's comforting to realize that I still have the capacity to experience that degree of self-absorption when the moment's right. Better to feel passion too strongly than not feel anything at all. Right?
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siyeh From: siyeh Date: July 22nd, 2005 02:44 pm (UTC) (LINK TO SPECIFIC ENTRY)
I really, really, REALLY empathize with those emotional moments, how draining they are, and then feeling (pretty) certain it's better than feeling numbed out. I've been grappling with this question for years, and I like to think of it as a Cedar Point allegory: are the roller coasters better than the river boat ride?

While that metaphor is a bit rough, since the "downs" are part of the fun on the roller coaster, but you know what I mean. I really think sometimes I'd rather feel something than be numbed out, but I find myself becoming more and more numbed out. It becomes more and more logical.
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