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Quanundrum - De File
Does Collecting Make You Feel Dirty?
cbertsch
cbertsch
Quanundrum
I've been having a lot of difficulty knowing what to write here over the past few months. My handwritten journals are brimming with material that I intend to transfer to this medium. But something keeps stopping me from completing the task. Or, to be more precise, some things. The biggest hurdle is the knowledge that I seem to have A) readers who take everything I write literally; B) readers who take everything I write figuratively; and C) that I frequently play both of those roles myself. That is, I'd love to lash out at all the people who are too dense to comprehend my provocatively dispersed musings, but realize that doing so would leave me with more lacerations than I'm prepared to treat. Tonight I had the thought that, having failed to post an entry for over 48 hours, I could simply stop my Live Journal cold. Although I'm not likely to follow through on this thought, the mere fact that I had it in the first place is worth probing. My frustrations with this medium have been mounting. Maybe it's time to find a new approach to it.
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From: e4q Date: October 24th, 2005 07:45 am (UTC) (LINK TO SPECIFIC ENTRY)
that is an interesting thoughty. didn't you set yourself the task of posting every-single-day recently? perhaps that was too much of a straitjacket? telling yourself you 'could stop' might give you the freedom to continue with the sensation of it being volutaristic rather than forced?
every day is, i think, a lot. it is an interesting task, but one i would rebel against myself, even though i have been a diarist for years. i started off doing 'morning pages' from the 'artist's way'. this degenerated into several years of 'moaning' pages instead, but i continued out of sheer compulsion. i rebelled against it being in the morning, i rebelled against the 3 page a day format, but i kept going because it fulfilled a need i had at the time. LJ is a different prospect, and a different discipline, but if i thought i had to do it every day i expect i would want to stop too
cbertsch From: cbertsch Date: October 24th, 2005 12:35 pm (UTC) (LINK TO SPECIFIC ENTRY)
I just finished a year of at least one post per day in early September. I didn't set out to do that, but made it a goal about halfway through. So I've let myself off that hook, but now find that when I don't post for a while I feel like I'm losing the ability to post at all. Strange. Maybe it's just a phase.
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