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Delusion of the Day
Browsing the philosophy section at Borders earlier this evening I was overwhelmed by the realization that Kierkegaard is crucial for everything that matters to me. I've had milder attacks previous to this one. Every time I pick him up I get so freaked out by the lack of certainty in his layered presentation that I put the book down with a shudder. But that response is really a cry for help. I can't not have come to terms with his work and be adequately qualified to wax profound about the use of the first-person in theory, now can I? Not to mention that this realization reactivates an earlier one, namely that I need to be an expert on Romanticism, particularly in a Mitteleuropäischer context, in order to comprehend the foundations of punk aesthetics. Since there is approximately zero percent chance of me acquiring expertise on either Kierkegaard or Romanticism in the next year, however, I will have to either A) consign myself to feelings of low self-worth; or B) get over it. Maybe I should try Prozac after all. Or yoga. Or the Atkins Diet. Or a life of reckless hedonism. Anything to send my mind into sleep mode.

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elizabeg From: elizabeg Date: March 29th, 2006 07:59 am (UTC) (LINK TO SPECIFIC ENTRY)
Yoga. Definitely yoga. KDD will never (wisely) let the carbs out of the house so you have no hope if you go for Atkins. None.

Yoga is my hedonism. Just ask mathmagic.

Maybe you just need more friends. I happen to know a lovely young LA lady who will be ramming her way through the greatest hits of British Romanticism in 8 weeks or less, complete with German influx. For instance. That's not competency, hers or yours, I know. But whatever.

Kierkegaard does that to me too. I got so sucked into the start of Concept of Irony that I had to put it down or I never would have written the Sterne paper.
cbertsch From: cbertsch Date: March 29th, 2006 07:28 pm (UTC) (LINK TO SPECIFIC ENTRY)
I can't even touch my toes!
yourbestfiend From: yourbestfiend Date: March 29th, 2006 07:39 pm (UTC) (LINK TO SPECIFIC ENTRY)
well, then, it'll have to be reckless hedonism for you!
cbertsch From: cbertsch Date: March 30th, 2006 07:25 am (UTC) (LINK TO SPECIFIC ENTRY)
Will there be intoxication involved? I want to hear colors and smell fear!
masoo From: masoo Date: March 29th, 2006 08:25 am (UTC) (LINK TO SPECIFIC ENTRY)
"I need to be an expert on Romanticism, particularly in a Mitteleuropäischer context, in order to comprehend the foundations of punk aesthetics."

Just go put Siouxsie and the Banshees on your stereo. Honest, it'll work just as good.
cbertsch From: cbertsch Date: March 29th, 2006 07:18 pm (UTC) (LINK TO SPECIFIC ENTRY)
An excellent point!
frostedfuckhead From: frostedfuckhead Date: March 29th, 2006 11:10 am (UTC) (LINK TO SPECIFIC ENTRY)
hahahaha
_luaineach From: _luaineach Date: March 29th, 2006 04:55 pm (UTC) (LINK TO SPECIFIC ENTRY)
Or yoga. Or the Atkins Diet. Or a life of reckless hedonism. Anything to send my mind into sleep mode.

These things put your mind into sleep mode?!?!? Wow, we must be doing them totally differently.

I advocate all three and then discover how you stop thinking in relative terms like "low self-worth" in the first place.
cbertsch From: cbertsch Date: March 29th, 2006 07:25 pm (UTC) (LINK TO SPECIFIC ENTRY)
I guess I should work harder on sending those I'm-being-ironic signals. Or at least those I'm-being-partially-ironic signals. While it's true that I had the sudden urge to stop everything and read Kierkegaard, I wasn't nearly as upset as my entry implied. Exaggeration for effect, you know, a la KDD. But I suppose it is true that I wish I could turn off, not my whole mind, but the part of it that is preoccupied with future and past at the expense of present. To be more Zen, if you will. Should I feel ashamed that it's beef that makes me least bound to the fiction of a continuous self?
_luaineach From: _luaineach Date: March 29th, 2006 07:31 pm (UTC) (LINK TO SPECIFIC ENTRY)
I guess I should work harder on sending those I'm-being-ironic signals.

::laughing::

*I* think you should work harder on paying attention to my icons. I most certainly wouldn't have used my "laughing" one had I thought you *truly* upset. Sheesh. Don't make me have to go back to inserting smiley faces every other sentence!!! ;)

Should I feel ashamed that it's beef

I, personally, can't feel ashamed about anything having to do with beef. I love it.
cbertsch From: cbertsch Date: March 30th, 2006 07:26 am (UTC) (LINK TO SPECIFIC ENTRY)
Wait a second. Is that swirly fractal color icon your "laughing" icon? I'm confused. . . :-)
_luaineach From: _luaineach Date: March 31st, 2006 05:49 am (UTC) (LINK TO SPECIFIC ENTRY)
Yes, can't you see the dementedly happy smiling face in the middle of it? That's my laughing giddily like I'm stoned icon.

The above is when I'm only "cheerfully grinning".

There's a whole word of tone in icons. ;)
frostedfuckhead From: frostedfuckhead Date: March 30th, 2006 12:46 am (UTC) (LINK TO SPECIFIC ENTRY)
i got the signals, never fear. haha
cbertsch From: cbertsch Date: March 30th, 2006 07:26 am (UTC) (LINK TO SPECIFIC ENTRY)
But you're in China, simply desperate for Anglo-American sign throwing!
hollsterhambone From: hollsterhambone Date: March 29th, 2006 07:21 pm (UTC) (LINK TO SPECIFIC ENTRY)
Thanks for posting this. It's helpful to me.

Hedonism? The people I've run into who are on Prozac (well, those people I've known were on Prozac at the times I met them) scare me. They seem soul-less. Other substances--like beer--at least only last for a little while.
cbertsch From: cbertsch Date: March 29th, 2006 07:30 pm (UTC) (LINK TO SPECIFIC ENTRY)
I was exaggerating, I should add. See my previous comment. But recognizing delusions as delusions seems helpful, at least most of the time.
hollsterhambone From: hollsterhambone Date: March 29th, 2006 08:26 pm (UTC) (LINK TO SPECIFIC ENTRY)
Yes! Recognition is useful, definitely. And exaggeration is fun. I think in my comment I should have responded more to the fun in your post rather than riffing on my own fear of Prozac. I should be more obvious, too.
cbertsch From: cbertsch Date: March 30th, 2006 07:27 am (UTC) (LINK TO SPECIFIC ENTRY)
Prozac freaks me out. Marijuana does not. I'm not sure what that means, but it's true.
frostedfuckhead From: frostedfuckhead Date: March 30th, 2006 08:28 am (UTC) (LINK TO SPECIFIC ENTRY)
I could riff on this thread until the pressure in your eyes built to such a degree you'd simply HAVE to find relief somewhere.

cbertsch From: cbertsch Date: March 30th, 2006 03:11 pm (UTC) (LINK TO SPECIFIC ENTRY)
Oh, please do!
frostedfuckhead From: frostedfuckhead Date: April 3rd, 2006 01:36 am (UTC) (LINK TO SPECIFIC ENTRY)
now is neither the time nor the place for such things ;>
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