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The Care of the Self
Once I'd gotten over my Whitney Houston crush and, thanks to the better part of a summer in the Rhode Island School of Design's "Pre-College" program, realized that my classmates at Queen Anne School were hopelessly unhip and therefore had nothing on me, I returned for my senior year with a newfound sense of purpose. I'd already lost a lot of weight at RISD, thanks to the abysmal cafeteria food and the misery of solitude, but amped up my makeover by taking lots of No-Doz and jogging nightly.

That plan would eventually catch up with me, leading to a January of what my father referred to as "malingering." In the meantime, though, I slimmed down like a fashion model on crack and then managed to crack a bone in my foot:

I was even dying my hair, for some strange reason. Yesterday I was contacted by a magazine I'm writing for about providing a credit for an author photo. It hadn't occurred to me that they'd think someone other than me was responsible for the shots I sent them. Why would anyone take a picture of me?

It was a pleasure, then, to discover the scratched and severely faded Konica negative of this photo in my archives last night, because it proves that, yes, someone did photograph me for some extra-familial purpose. That person would have been Henry, later my freshman-year flatmate in Berkeley and still later the person whom I periodically met at the Bear's Lair to discuss the merits of the Grateful Dead, proving that I had, once and for all, become as post-innocent as I'd felt before I'd lost my innocence.

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Current Location: 85704
Mode: peroxide and toothpaste
Muse: a pleasantly insistent memory of Clap Your Hands Say Yeah

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mhkrabat From: mhkrabat Date: August 22nd, 2006 03:47 pm (UTC) (LINK TO SPECIFIC ENTRY)
Wow. In this photo I can see the you that resides in Bean's face.
cbertsch From: cbertsch Date: August 22nd, 2006 04:07 pm (UTC) (LINK TO SPECIFIC ENTRY)
Oh, yes. I guess so. Hopefully her hair will hold out longer than mine did!
_luaineach From: _luaineach Date: August 22nd, 2006 04:47 pm (UTC) (LINK TO SPECIFIC ENTRY)
I was going to say the same thing.
cbertsch From: cbertsch Date: August 22nd, 2006 04:55 pm (UTC) (LINK TO SPECIFIC ENTRY)
I actually see it pretty readily in most photos. But I think that's because I look in the mirror at myself every day. Almost all the photos of me that appear are self-taken and therefore a little too close, distorting the lines of my face enough to make me look a little unlike myself. If I had a better camera, that wouldn't be such a problem. Anyway, I'm glad you can see it here.
mhkrabat From: mhkrabat Date: August 22nd, 2006 11:57 pm (UTC) (LINK TO SPECIFIC ENTRY)
I'm in good company then!
cbertsch From: cbertsch Date: August 23rd, 2006 12:19 am (UTC) (LINK TO SPECIFIC ENTRY)
And exciting!
From: pants007 Date: August 22nd, 2006 04:26 pm (UTC) (LINK TO SPECIFIC ENTRY)
Two things:

1) We now witness a partial origin of your desire to limp alongside me when I had crutches.

2) The whole Osama-Whitney thing is like something out of Team America: World Police.
cbertsch From: cbertsch Date: August 22nd, 2006 04:37 pm (UTC) (LINK TO SPECIFIC ENTRY)
1) Yes! I have fond memories of nearly killing myself on snowy Cambridge, Mass cobblestones on the way to a Model UN session adjacent to The Yard

2) I'm sure the American government has a task force concocting these rumors. Then again, there's no reason to assume that Bin Laden isn't kicking it with Whitney right now, since they are equally hidden from the public eye.
xxxpunkxgrrlxxx From: xxxpunkxgrrlxxx Date: August 22nd, 2006 04:56 pm (UTC) (LINK TO SPECIFIC ENTRY)
model UN... reminds me of the simpsons.

"do you want to be like the real UN, or do you just want to squabble and waste time?!"
cbertsch From: cbertsch Date: August 22nd, 2006 05:02 pm (UTC) (LINK TO SPECIFIC ENTRY)

It was a great excuse to travel away from school, though.
kumaraka From: kumaraka Date: August 22nd, 2006 09:22 pm (UTC) (LINK TO SPECIFIC ENTRY)
HOT! You look like Jude Law!
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