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It may be a cliché to say that you won't know what you've got until it's gone, but that doesn't mean that the feelings of loss are any less felt. I talked with two friends on the phone today, one who has already left for a greener world and another who is likely to follow. I'm happy for them, since there's only so much psychological desiccation a person can take before the reasons for hope dry up in the sun. But I don't particularly like the sensation of abandonment. Now if I could just figure out a way to excise the overly mental aspect of that sensation, so that I might inhabit the "gone" myself, the veil of brown might lift from my own sight.

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kolakoski From: kolakoski Date: February 19th, 2007 05:28 am (UTC) (LINK TO SPECIFIC ENTRY)
I like the idea of inhabiting the "gone".
cbertsch From: cbertsch Date: February 19th, 2007 05:35 am (UTC) (LINK TO SPECIFIC ENTRY)
The past participle is perfect!
siyeh From: siyeh Date: February 19th, 2007 04:35 pm (UTC) (LINK TO SPECIFIC ENTRY)
I don't know how to feel about any of this, but I feel that you and I are experiencing this the most keenly. Want to get together sometime soon?
cbertsch From: cbertsch Date: February 19th, 2007 07:14 pm (UTC) (LINK TO SPECIFIC ENTRY)
I do. What days are you on campus? I'm actually free right now. But I have a new phone and don't have your number.
siyeh From: siyeh Date: February 19th, 2007 07:18 pm (UTC) (LINK TO SPECIFIC ENTRY)
I'm emailing you my phone number. DO you have a new number? I'm on campus Tuesday Thursday mostly, but I can come in other days.
hollsterhambone From: hollsterhambone Date: February 19th, 2007 08:11 pm (UTC) (LINK TO SPECIFIC ENTRY)
"But I don't particularly like the sensation of abandonment."

Abandoning or being abandoned? I don't like either one. I always want to envision my changed relationship as attenuated rather than severed.
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