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Chelsea Girl - De File
Does Collecting Make You Feel Dirty?
cbertsch
cbertsch
Chelsea Girl
This is what I bring you, stumbling
slightly on the mat I would have seen
if I hadn't been looking for you inside
my head: the will to imagine a life
in memories that belong to someone
else. "I had a liver. I don't think I'll risk

another," sings Nico. "Lover," that is,
but I'll leave the slip, to remind me
of those places where I need to tread
carefully. Did you know that she hated

that record? On the cover her eyes
shine white, lit by a source within
the space beyond the frame. "Memory."
The grass is wet under the sunny gray

clouds and the gravel on the circular
drive sounds like the teeth of an audience
coming down on their crisps. It's a Ford
Cortina, chestnut brown with beige seats.
The woman opening the driver's door
has a red handbag. Except that she's not

the driver, I realize, correcting for her
location. She looks a lot like Nico
come to think of it, as she strides
up the marble steps. The driver is nowhere

in sight. Maybe it's me, I think, as she
waits for the bell to be answered to
John Cale's insistent strings. You look
nothing like Nico, my love. But I did

have a Ford Cortina once, when I was
three. I couldn't stand the feeling
when my dry fingers would touch the
metal. I kept bringing them to my
mouth, but the relief only lasted
for a few seconds. "She wants another

scene," she sings, "She wants to be
a human being." I swear, girl. The
highway may be thick with lorries,
but once we hit the Chertsey Road
we might as well be in Basingstoke
already. I hope you'll forgive me.

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mhkrabat From: mhkrabat Date: March 13th, 2007 09:13 pm (UTC) (LINK TO SPECIFIC ENTRY)
Prose Poetry with a Cortina?!

My brother actually bought a '66 Cortina GT a few years back, which I know is sort of missing the point of your work, so I should say

I enjoyed it.

cbertsch From: cbertsch Date: March 13th, 2007 09:41 pm (UTC) (LINK TO SPECIFIC ENTRY)
I was always fascinated by the Matchboxes for cars I didn't ever see in the States.

Thanks for reading!
xxxpunkxgrrlxxx From: xxxpunkxgrrlxxx Date: March 13th, 2007 10:54 pm (UTC) (LINK TO SPECIFIC ENTRY)
very nice.
cbertsch From: cbertsch Date: March 13th, 2007 11:34 pm (UTC) (LINK TO SPECIFIC ENTRY)
Thanks! How are you doing "these days," to quote Nico?
xxxpunkxgrrlxxx From: xxxpunkxgrrlxxx Date: March 13th, 2007 11:41 pm (UTC) (LINK TO SPECIFIC ENTRY)
not well. i'm getting over what i believe to be the flu (i spent saturday and most of sunday sleeping), and i'm in the middle of a depression that feels sort of incapacitating.
cbertsch From: cbertsch Date: March 14th, 2007 12:04 pm (UTC) (LINK TO SPECIFIC ENTRY)
Oh, dear. I sort of had a feeling you weren't doing well. If there's anything I could do, well, I'd do it.
frostedfuckhead From: frostedfuckhead Date: March 13th, 2007 11:48 pm (UTC) (LINK TO SPECIFIC ENTRY)
Yes, I did know she hated the album. I read somewhere that she couldn't get anyone to listen to her suggestions...

"lit by a source within
the space beyond the frame." is an excellent way to gesture toward memories that aren't your own. it's nice because we usually consider things 'beyond' a given frame to be 'within' nothing at all, but of course when thinking of another's memories the description is apt.

Nice1.

cbertsch From: cbertsch Date: March 14th, 2007 12:05 pm (UTC) (LINK TO SPECIFIC ENTRY)
I'm glad you caught that. I liked the idea of a beyond that was still within. And of Matchboxes, of course.
From: marcegoodman Date: March 14th, 2007 02:16 pm (UTC) (LINK TO SPECIFIC ENTRY)
http://www.knkmusic.net/2006/12/lou-reed-nico-bedroom-tape.html

Tape quality: Challenging
Music: Sublime, as always
Conversation: Funny and heartbreaking
cbertsch From: cbertsch Date: March 14th, 2007 02:35 pm (UTC) (LINK TO SPECIFIC ENTRY)
Thanks for the awesome tip! I was just thinking about you and that we need to get together soon. I'm trying to get my social life going again.
From: marcegoodman Date: March 14th, 2007 05:05 pm (UTC) (LINK TO SPECIFIC ENTRY)
Yes, I'd love to get together. I've been thinking of you too. I still would like to shoot hoops one of these days, but I'm sure there must be a show or two of mutual interest coming up.
From: marcegoodman Date: March 14th, 2007 02:33 pm (UTC) (LINK TO SPECIFIC ENTRY)
Btw, I really like the new picture. Cropped that way, I barely recognized you!
cbertsch From: cbertsch Date: March 14th, 2007 02:35 pm (UTC) (LINK TO SPECIFIC ENTRY)
I wanted to look like a badass English hood.
From: marcegoodman Date: March 14th, 2007 05:05 pm (UTC) (LINK TO SPECIFIC ENTRY)
It worked!
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