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A Strange Nostalgia
I've never been sicker than I was in the month this photo was taken, during Steven -- who took it -- and Robin's Thanksgiving visit to Tucson in November, 2000.

By the time I started to show significant improvement, I'd lost thirty pounds and inadvertently spattered the walls of our new home with droplets of blood I'd coughed up. But I still remember that time fondly, both because it was so nice having true friends come to see us in the wake of the hellish experience of moving to Tucson in the middle of summer, and because my illness granted me a strange sense of clarity, as if my mind were shedding excess as fast as my body. I remember reading Don DeLillo's The Names alongside the book edition of John Lennon's famous post-Beatles interview with Rolling Stone and, in both cases, feeling myself sink into the prose the same way I was sinking into the sofa that had become my sickbed. It wasn't anyone's idea of good times, surely, and a period that had a huge impact on my subsequent time at the University of Arizona, because of its legacy in my lungs. And yet I can almost taste the dust blowing up in our barren backyard and see the still-unfamiliar light on the mountains in the distance, as if they were memories of a vacation I'd willingly repeat. Maybe I should find the time to read Der Zauberberg.

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masoo From: masoo Date: September 6th, 2007 06:39 am (UTC) (LINK TO SPECIFIC ENTRY)
I started to grow up with that John Lennon interview, if in fact I actually have grown up. I graduated from high school when I was still 16 and, having spent the last three years wanting desperately to be a hippie, I was only to glad to move with my brother to Capitola, where for a year I fulfilled my wishes, taking psychedelics and playing on the beach. When Lennon's interview came out, it threw everything into a different place. Primal therapy seems kinda like a joke now, but back then, it terrified me because it sounded realer than real, just like John's singing on the Plastic Ono Band album.

At some point, the actual recordings of the interview made the rounds, and it was odd, because on paper, John sounds pretty fucking bitter and pissed off, but hearing his voice, he sounds much more level, even nicer.
cbertsch From: cbertsch Date: September 6th, 2007 02:04 pm (UTC) (LINK TO SPECIFIC ENTRY)
Interesting. In what form did those recordings make the rounds? Was the cassette established as a format by then?

That record -- which I also bought while you were visiting -- is such a great tonic for the excesses of what preceded it.
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