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Nothing Saying
For reasons that are both completely translucent and disturbingly opaque, I am passing this week drained of the desire to communicate. I mean, I have more than enough motive to stop sharing right now. But that usually acts as a spur to my writing. Perhaps I'm just tired or possessed of a bug that worms its way into the psyche. Anyway, rather than acting out one of the blog crises that my friends here seem to keep having, I will try to wait out this emptiness in the hopes of returning to my regular routine over the next few days. Just composing this entry seems to be giving me some momentum. Who knows? Maybe I just need to dispense with the demand I am presently perceiving to make extensive use of excessive alliteration and consonance. . .

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bitterlawngnome From: bitterlawngnome Date: March 1st, 2008 02:24 pm (UTC) (LINK TO SPECIFIC ENTRY)
just post pictures, why it requires hardly any thought at all.
cbertsch From: cbertsch Date: March 1st, 2008 02:36 pm (UTC) (LINK TO SPECIFIC ENTRY)
Ha! I agonize more over which photos to post than I do over my prose. I took a bunch of photos in Louisville last week, but I can't seem to choose between them.
From: babyiwasshot Date: March 1st, 2008 02:32 pm (UTC) (LINK TO SPECIFIC ENTRY)

life writing

"blog crises "

hahahah blog=IDENTITY

What the hell are words, anyway? The answer varies from person to person. To ME, they've always been either orthographic representations of SOUND, or representations of (usually abstract) IDEAS/concepts.

I LOATHE the concrete and hate writing description; I've always viewed it as pointless given that the senses are different for every person; what the point in trying to describe green and red to somebody who's colorblind, for instance?

PS: no allegory in this......this is a huge problem of writing (the source of the "blog crisis," perhaps? ) as well. WHen people read something with personal investment, it has the potential to cause problems for one


OH, I'm also not writing as much due to lack of TIME.
cbertsch From: cbertsch Date: March 1st, 2008 02:37 pm (UTC) (LINK TO SPECIFIC ENTRY)

Re: life writing

I sometimes feel that way myself, about description. Frequently, in fact. But this lull I'm in has more to do with the sense that I'm not sure what role to play. Or so it seems today.
From: babyiwasshot Date: March 1st, 2008 03:13 pm (UTC) (LINK TO SPECIFIC ENTRY)

Re: life writing

I feel that. Broken "imago": no concept of my own agency and the inherent ETHICAL dimension of every choice I make (and corresponding action/lack thereof). Not to mention the fragmentation--it's pure lacan, right? Reality IS fragmentation; thus, we have to either choose between the reflection/image and the super ego, or find a way to integrate both (my current task)......those of us RIGHT in the liminal space between the two are screwed. I wanna live the fantasy and the reality.

Hah! IT could be worse. At least I'm bipolar, meaning that the reality that is the antithesis of my perceptions really never changes; I shift from feeling positive to feeling negative, but that's how I'd feel in "the desert of the real," too.

Hell, for that matter, I'm still trying to acclimate myself to the notion that life entails a "necessary I." A belief in "essence" is hard to escape--for me, at least. I also can't help thinknig that it has something to do with my teutophilia (german love; is that a real word?); I'm clinging to it so tightly.

I can escape lacan as soon as I make my life MORE than mere writing in a blog, I guess.
From: babyiwasshot Date: March 1st, 2008 03:26 pm (UTC) (LINK TO SPECIFIC ENTRY)

Re: life writing

SOmetimes I think I get popped for conflating capitalism with colonialism, but the former gave impetus to the latter, so it doesn't seem a conflation to me......really, i think post-colonial studies is a sub-disciple of marxism, and I find myself (or perhaps imagine myself) in conflict with those who disagree.

cbertsch From: cbertsch Date: March 2nd, 2008 01:38 am (UTC) (LINK TO SPECIFIC ENTRY)

Re: life writing

It certainly came from Marxism. Of that there can be no dispute.
From: babyiwasshot Date: March 2nd, 2008 02:36 am (UTC) (LINK TO SPECIFIC ENTRY)

Re: life writing

There's only one (arguably) "colonial" state engendered by something OTHER than a capitalist impulse and that's Israel, which, incidentally, is the only such state that has a legitimate claim to sovereignty, in my opinion; the only reason there's conflict is that--surprise, surprise--the fucking BRITISH mismanaged the bestowment of land. The muslims are targeting the wrong group. According to one book I read, they could've given the arabs JORDAN, but instead gave it to Faisal's (frmr. king of Iraq) brother........the british fucked the region up, not the jews or the muslims......hence yet another reason for my anglophobia
elf_owl From: elf_owl Date: March 2nd, 2008 03:45 pm (UTC) (LINK TO SPECIFIC ENTRY)
If you wanna go get coffee or a beer and not communicate sometime this week, let me know.
cbertsch From: cbertsch Date: March 2nd, 2008 08:15 pm (UTC) (LINK TO SPECIFIC ENTRY)
That might be nice. What's your schedule like?
elf_owl From: elf_owl Date: March 2nd, 2008 08:51 pm (UTC) (LINK TO SPECIFIC ENTRY)
Tues & Weds I work at the group home from 8 a.m. - 9 p.m., so am only available after that those nights. Monday & Thursday are massage job days, so I am on call throughout the day but free for real by 5 on Monday & 4:30 Thursday. Friday I'm free after my acupuncture, but am not sure I should put caffeine or beer in my body right after that... Somehow herbal tea doesn't seem like an appropriate beverage for the, um, occasion.
cbertsch From: cbertsch Date: March 2nd, 2008 10:36 pm (UTC) (LINK TO SPECIFIC ENTRY)
Well, I teach until 9:30pm on Tuesday. But you need to be up early. And this week won't work anyway for Tuesday. Mondays are generally good, though there may be complications this week. If we put it off until next Monday, that should work.
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