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Although I had a brief panic attack this morning before realizing the date, most of the day lacked that sense of gravity that had distinguished previous September 11ths for me. The fact that some of my friends were commemorating the 1972 debut of BART only added to the oddness of the experience. Acknowledging the historical significance of the date, but for an entirely different reason than I would have expected, did a number on my mind. I suppose it's good that we've moved on from the feeling, powerfully reinforced by the Bush Administration, that everything must be perceived in terms of 9/11. But I still missed the intensity of previous commemorations. If nothing else, I'd like the historical event to remain an active topic because I feel that September, 2001 is when my life took a major turn for the worse from which I have yet to escape. That's a selfish though, I know. Nevertheless, it still seems better to me than altogether failing to remember.

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chefxh From: chefxh Date: September 12th, 2009 03:54 pm (UTC) (LINK TO SPECIFIC ENTRY)
The eleventh this year was only about you and Mark for me. *hug* I also had other commemorations: two years ago yesterday I got hired at EWU, and one year ago yesterday my boss went a little crazy and threw out 150 portions of a dish I had made because the sauce was too thick.
masoo From: masoo Date: September 12th, 2009 07:15 pm (UTC) (LINK TO SPECIFIC ENTRY)
I notice you used a "nostalgia" tag here. Not sure why, but I think our memories of BART were nostalgic, while your memories of 9/11 are something else, perhaps because of your personal connection to one of the victims. You won't ever forget, and that's appropriate. I also wouldn't worry about being selfish ... all of us are selfish in that way, thinking about such an enormous public event in private terms. Every 9/11, I find myself thinking of Jillian's sister Jackie, who was in the towers. It's just how I identify specifics with that date.
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