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Where Does the Time Go? - De File
Does Collecting Make You Feel Dirty?
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Where Does the Time Go?
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siyeh From: siyeh Date: November 25th, 2012 10:49 pm (UTC) (LINK TO SPECIFIC ENTRY)
I always feel like if I'm not archiving "the past," the somehow the experience wasn't as good or as authentic. And somehow I associate my failure to document in the last couple years with my overall dissatisfaction. But at one point, weirdly, I convinced myself that I wasn't writing because I was happy...
cbertsch From: cbertsch Date: November 27th, 2012 10:11 pm (UTC) (LINK TO SPECIFIC ENTRY)
(Sorry for the delay in replying. LJ was down -- of course -- when I had time to answer comments yesterday.)

I've been having a major crisis with regard to my archival tendencies. I have failed to document quite a bit over the past year-plus. And I haven't kept the pledge I made to myself to start turning all the shit I have stored away into something meaningful. Maybe it's just a phase.

I will say, though, that, even when I've convinced myself that I'm not writing and/or sharing my writing because I'm happy or busy or not desperate for affirmation, I was fooling myself. I'm not happy when I'm not writing for a public. And I'm not writing for a public much when I'm not happy.
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